As Susannah Breslin notes, there is no going home again, unless of course you are facing the mirror:

"The first time I went to Porn Valley, I was insane. My father had died the year previous. By the time I found myself in Pornland, I was out of my mind. I met porn stars, watched gangbangs, attended bukkakes. In the end, there was porn in my closet, porn under my bed, porn inside my head. This time, it's different. I can't undo what I've done, I can't unsee what I've seen, I can't not know what I know. I'm the reverse cowgirl, riding forwards, looking backwards, going back to Porn Valley again."

Read her excellent blog here.